The lies of Sleepless in Seattle

Hi,
This is as awkward as the first time you have phone sex with someone, the boundaries of propriety haven't been established and you don't want to scare them off by telling them how you'd like to stick your finger up their butt. Anyway, like all self absorbed people I am making this blog to vent about the trivial pain I encounter in my life with my spouse. He is a sex addict or just crazy, he is seeing a psychiatrist to help him learn to overcome his addiction. Its tough because some days I understand and can see the pain of being addicted to something but other days I want the over idealized normal relationship. Some days I want to not hear about how hot this chick's tits are or how much he wants to fuck this one or that. I so would like to not worry about what he is doing and whom with all the time. It doesn't help that he has a small harem that call all the time, including his ex, who want his services, and occasionally he gives in, telling me a few days or what not later when I am in a good mood and will be less likely to make him feel guilty. Have I just caught him in a web of guilt? Is that our relationship, sex, guilt and forgiveness? Does he stay because he can tell me he cheats and I forgive him? I put out this question to the void of the internet because perhaps I know the answer, and like the true self absorbed coward am not ready to face it.